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a little bit of everything

Phew, things have been intense this last week. I'll admit, I've been having a rough time and I've engaged in some negative coping mechanisms - but I've also done a lot of positive too.  I've created a self care/soothe box that has a little of everything I need. I'm grateful I'm in a fortunate enough situation to do this for myself, and I can’t wait to start making self care boxes for others who are struggling. Helping others is so important to both me and cathryn and if we can brighten just one person's day then our time and energy hasn't been wasted. We've already handed out a little over 20 to our local mental health services which makes me feel a sense of pride, an unusual feeling for me. I'm currently under the crisis team due to things being so hard right now, and I'm finding their support helpful, there's just so much going on, so many stressors, but I have my support network around me, and my box with a little bit of everything...
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body dysmorphia

Its not body dysmorphia if its true. That's what I tell myself.  Others however, they disagree, they say im seeing myself the way I used to look. Ive dropped 7 clothes sizes. I know that, but it has to be a trick right? Someone's changing the labels, something.  I never used to have issues with my body image and my eating, but it soon turned into an obsession. I spend hours of the day looking at myself, I sometimes don't know if I want to stare at the mirror, avoid it, or smash it. I see all my flaws. My weight,  my scars, every imperfection. I would give anything to change this body I'm in. But no matter what I do, my size remains the same - at least in my head. I've taken drastic measures, and I consider drastic measures every day.  Its isolating and lonely feeling this way. Its also a little scary. How far will I go to see what I want to - the truth. Is it even possible? I feel trapped in a body i dont want and a mind that plays tricks on me. It's not body dy...
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